Spring Feelings

It seems that with the change in seasons comes a change that occurs invisibly, like a small electric current that we all get tuned in to as we sense the impending warmth and longer days ahead. We feel like we need to be renewed somehow, whether in discovering something new or traveling or even buying a new outfit. 

I know I haven't uploaded a podcast in a very long while, and because of work and busy weekends, being sick TWICE and overall just feeling a tad uninspired, I have left this project on the wayside. I wish I had a producer that had all the equipment and a great sound quality and knows what they're doing. Technology is hard! Anyway, what I have been doing is cleaning out my posessions and getting some fresh things for spring.

I've also been dreaming of taking a vacation to the desert. For some reason, the solace and silence of expansive, arid terrain seems like pure bliss. Living in a city surrounded by buildings, people and unending noise can take a toll on my brain. I feel like the desert is the opposite of where I am and my environment and I have some strange attraction to find myself alone in the great outdoors instead of hiding in my room to find peace. 

I can't wait for warmer, sunnier days when I can take a hike or enjoy a picnic next to the river. I really feel invigorated with the changing of any seasons, like my psyche is jolted and given new life. Just as we feel like we will never see the sun, nature gives us a glimpse of what's coming and our hope is restored.


On Self Care

I get it, you and everyone you know have been reading the news, and it seems like every new headline causes you to groan or feel like another step has been taken in the wrong direction. Its hard to feel hopeful or like anything you do counts because this whole *thing* feels like madness. When our President begins slamming the media and press and his advisers use terms like "fake news" or "alternative facts", it makes you feel crazy. How is this even possible? How did we get here? 

Well, we're here. And we need to take steps to ensure our hearts and minds don't become weary, and last I checked it was only February. So to feel some ownership over your environment, here are some tips for self-care that will help you feel mindful, present and ready to fight (without violence of course).

Read More.

Find a good book and escape. I'm currently reading through the Outlander series and the mix of historical fiction, time-travelling and a hot Scot help take my mind of current events, even for an hour during my work commute. 

Treat Yo' Self

Donna Meagle and Tom Haverford had the best idea with "the best day of the year"! Use your day off to do whatever you want, if that means staying in your PJs and eating tubs of ice cream or scheduling a spa day or night out with your friends. You deserve it, and don't feel bad for giving yourself time and space to just be. Treating myself means binge-watching my favorite show, throwing on a mud mask and online shopping. Amazon Prime is my friend.

Social Media Detox

The news is scary and its EVERYWHERE. No judgement if you gotta delete your Facebook or be MIA online for awhile. We all feel you.


Now more than ever we need to show our support for causes and people we care about. You can protest, write to your elected officials (as in write them a letter, it has more impact than a call or email), donate to your favorite charity or non-profit, or be an ear for someone that needs to vent. It is important to ACT and not assume those around you will do the work. Because look where that got us. It's no longer okay to say you don't want to get involved with politics because in reality it is affecting your friends, your livelihood, your healthcare and your children's future. If you don't want to get involved then you should not be able to engage in discussion or have an opinion, SO HAVE ONE. I get so frustrated when people just want cute kittens and rainbows, that just screams privilege and I'm done with it. Speak up for those whose voices are being silenced, be an ally rather than a passive observer. 

Stay Strong

Change is slow, progress only as fast as our minds are able to adapt and accept. The news may be upsetting and frustrating and makes you think we're living in an alternate universe. It just sucks. But feeling defeated will not get us ahead. If you are feeling overwhelmed, try to be mindful and take a rest. Be ready again tomorrow.


Women's March

One day after the inauguration, women and their allies marched in solidarity today all over the country, and I was grateful to join the Women's March in Portland. My husband Steve went with me and although it was a very rainy, gray and cold afternoon, the energy was uplifting and hopeful. The bus ride downtown was jam-packed with folks heading down to show their support for women's rights and it felt so exciting to be a part of something bigger than me. Being angry while I watch the news (ugh) is one thing, going out and showing up for causes I believe in is a whole different feeling.

Image captured by drone via KATU 

After the election in November I literally felt like I was hungover with grief. I couldn't believe that our country would choose division over inclusion and I felt like my world was flipped over and shaken out. I didn't realize so many Americans felt left out of the conversation, and was sorely shown how much of a "bubble" we all live in. We choose who to listen to on social media, we pick our friends on Facebook and "unfollow" any one who we disagree with. We curate an environment where we are always right, where every picture is the best possible representation. We control every aspect of our experience and that is amazing and also dangerous.

We should start engaging more in civil conversations with people outside our bubble. There, I said it. People need to hear the other side and come to an understanding of one another instead of assuming their views are wrong. We have to try and be more compassionate. Further divisions will only incite anger and violence-we can't go to that dark place.

Seeing 100,000 people who believe in the same values, who strive to make the world a safer, more inclusive space felt fucking great. By creating this podcast I hope to do justice to all women and share the stories of our sisters.